MY NEW ROLE -WIDOW

Became a Widow , after hubby lost his battle with CHEMO ....not Cancer.... 3 months ago

I still think Chemo kill him....

Till today , I still cannot accept that I am a WIDOW....

To me Widows are supposed to be old ...in their 70s or 80s surrounded by grown up children and grandchildren....
Grey hair , Long sighted....

I do not belong to this Group.....is it just a BAD Dream....???

But the truth is it is not a BAD Dream....

I now have to lead a NEW LIFE as Widow....

For the last few months , I tried to face the society with my new identiy...
I see a lot of human side....Bad and Good
There are people who will avoid me...thinking ...I am now in fiance difficulty....

Do not like this new Widow Role...... This new role has forced me to :
a)Refresh my Driving skills after 8 years....of always being the passenger...
b)Learn how to write cheques...pay bills...become a HAndy Woman...
c)Take on the father role....(the mother and father is me...)
d)hate weekends and public holidays....


So I am still adjusting my Roller Coaster emotion....on how to like my New Role as a Widow...